心情

最近為了出國花了父母很多錢一直很過意不去, 上大學以來一直表現平平, 但是心裡卻抱著遙不可及的夢想, 非常不實際.
我想我很難出國吧,雖然我從小學三年級就有去美國唸書的念頭, 那時候是覺得好玩,現在是想開開眼界, 但一出國一年就花父母上百萬,他們從我小時後到大學畢業已經花了這麼多心力和時間在我身上,等到出國還得了,而且一念就是7~8年,我卻沒有能力孝敬家人.
上面那幅圖是我無聊時畫的,我本來想畫一隻蝴蝶.雖然是想畫啥就畫啥,但光畫一半翅膀就兩個鐘頭,筋疲力盡了.下面那片翅膀好像藏有我的吶喊.
歡迎給予評價(可以click放大看),如果還可以,她可能會是我的副業,因為我沒事就愛畫這種東東,就連上課無聊也是.
如果可能的話,我希望能在我理想的學校念兩三年書就好,老實說念到現在已經有點厭倦,不應該再到學校去了.之後我想出來工作,早上賣豆花,下午幫忙賣鳳梨酥,晚上畫畫或弄個網拍或營利性網站.你們不要笑喔,這可能是真的.
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Looking forward to your call:D
Anyway, that's why I sometimes wish I could just quit these lectures and tests, and start doing some real research. However, it turns out that more studying is needed for grad school. More intensive, but no one there to tell you what to study.
Maybe we are tired now, but I guess the common saying :"it's easiest as a student" is, in fact, true. That's just the way it is.
Though not pretty sure what to do in the future, I've had some options after my graduation.
Probably I would find a new environment that can revive my tiredness first.